Why is it so hard!?

Why is it so hard for me to take a day to myself and not feel the need to be productive! I feel guilty even thinking about asking for someone to watch my kids without a reason, "i just need alone time" is so hard to get out. Well i finally did it and my mom watched my little ones for a whole day for me! I got to watch TV (the shows i wanted to watch ) Go to the grocery store childless, do a pole aerobics lesson, go to Lowes with a friend. It was nice! I highly recommend taking some me time.THANK YOU MOM